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You know that feeling when you should be happy but you just can't, no matter how hard you try? That's about how I'm feeling right now. I have this feeling of I'm where I should be, doing what I should be doing, but it doesn't seem to be helping. I almost feel alone. So alone I've lost feeling. And I've only been alone for a week. Its really getting to me. I miss my friends. I miss my family. I'm frustrated.
I thought I would enjoy this. Y'know. Living on my own. Making my own choices. Not have anyone else messing up the place or playing xbox when I wanted to watch tv. So far its been a total bummer. Having nobody here to go grocery shopping with, make fun of, joke around with when I get home... its really really lonely. Having frustrating homework doesn't help. I have this class that they're quizzing on the section before they teach it so we read the book but the problem is, I don't learn by reading. I learn by being taught in class and taking notes - in class. I know its only been one week but we have 2 quizzes to do on the weekend before we've been taught the stuff. I tried studying for the first one, went and did it online, and half the questions I don't remember reading about. Its dumb. And I wish they would teach us what we need to know before expecting us to know what we need to know.

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