Just Thoughts

Have you ever gotten the feeling of 'What am I doing right now?'. I have. But recently, lets say, in the past year and a half, I haven't thought that too much. I have taken the opportunity given to me to live my life better. I wouldn't say I had a bad life before that or that I was necessarily doing anything wrong, but I have been making a conscious and concerted effort to be happier. To live a better life.

Basically, the decision I made was to give God control, to let go of control of my life. For people that know me, they know that this is extremely hard. I love having control, and I do not often give it up. While in some ways I have taken control of my life, I have given the future to God. I have given my future decisions and what happens to me all to Him. While I struggle with this on a day to day basis sometimes, I have changed a lot. I recognize how much I have changed since graduating high school.I recognize how much I have changed since even first semester of my first year of my post secondary education.

I also recognize how much growing I have yet to do. I have become fairly involved at church and sortof volunteered myself to run some VGA cables for projectors that we want to buy for the church. I have become involved in a mens league soccer team, and we won our first game in a few weeks yesterday (which felt awesome by the way, 8-2 wins always feel really good). I have become what I consider to be fairly independent. While I recognize how much I still do really need my parents, I feel that I have come a long way and feel fairly independent.

In some ways, I believe I haven't changed. I see that I am still shy and while I am more outgoing then when I graduated high school, I definitely have a long way to go. I'm still confident in who I am. I still have great technical skills. My goals for life are still fairly consistent. My profession of choice has changed a bit, but I believe I made the change for the right reasons. I believe that my life has become better. I believe my future, while it has become uncertain, has become more promising. Thanks so much for anyone that has been involved in my life in the past year and a half, you have truly made my life better.