Frustration

I think I can honestly say that one feeling that nobody ever likes to feel is frustration. It's almost a feeling of helplessness, like you can't do anything to fix the situation you're in. You feel like nobody can help you. I almost feel like that right now, and I shouldn't. I know I shouldn't. I feel indecisive. I feel... lost almost. There are so many emotions that start swirling in your inner being when you feel frustrated it's hard to keep track of them. All I know is that I wish things just... happened easier for me sometimes. And I know it's selfish of me to say that because my life is a lot easier then a lot of other peoples.

There's a Petra song called Test of Time, and it's one of my favourite songs by them. It has a line that simply says

'The choices that we make will stand the test of time'

and I can't help but feel intimidated by that almost. What I do in the present will always be what happened in my past. Sometimes it's hard for me to make decisions, I just wish it came easier for me. I need God to lead my way right now. God knows what's going on. God will make His plan known, and if it doesn't line up with mine, mine will have to change. I'm not an unreasonable person, I just wanna know sooner rather then later...